Writing Again
Four Months is a long time. A really long time. I cannot even begin to describe the last four months. But it has been that long since I have last written anything here. And I think that it would be a good idea to re-start this discipline.I have been thinking lately about how much I really am beginning to like the idea of being "der Landstreicher", a vagabond--a wanderer. I have come back from a most amazing experience where wandering around was a big part of my daily life. And now that I have returned to a place I am used to, I have never felt more lost. More than ever I am feeling the weight of trying to figure out what I want out of my life. And more than ever I am beginning to come to the conclusion that I will not be able to figure it out. So I am just wandering. Not that there isn't an aim in mind, because there is. The problem is there are two right now: Music (that old stand-by that never seems to go away) and German (the new and exciting part of my life that right now has captured my attention and my passion). Both are good. Neither is making a strong case to be the right path. So now I am beginning to prepare two roads, so that I may be ready to walk down the one I choose. Which, after really thinking about it, is pretty cool. I get to look at a ton of Grad schools (which makes me excited), and dream twice as many big dreams. So, maybe this wandering thing isn't really being lost.
I'm just wandering. Soaking in what I can, and taking each step with intention. Some day I will get where I am meant to be.
posted by John D. Nevergall @ 23:53
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